Friday, 22 July 2016

Explaining my hiatus

Hey loves,

It's been a while, hasn't it? I came back from my holiday in Cornwall about 10 days ago, and it was great. I had a few days to catch up on laundry and housework before 4 members of my family came to stay for 6 days, and we had a really lovely time. But it's been a really busy few weeks and I'm really drained now as I haven't really had any rest for what seems like forever.

Ever since my holiday to Spain in May I've had a bigger interest in social media. I was lucky enough to be sent lots of things by brands which I had to review while I was in Spain, so I got quite good at doing mini reviews each day as I wore something. Because the last couple of months have been so full on in many respects I've not had the heart for blogging as I used to. I mean, I used to post daily and here I am after not posting for over a week, and even before that my general output has gone down to about 2-3 times a week. I've been using my time of not blogging in the last week to do some thinking, and I've come to a conclusion which I shared on Instagram today. I'll embed the post here rather than repeating myself.

I'm just putting some thoughts out aloud. I'm not feeling blogging at ALL the moment, but I've just come out of a really busy couple of weeks and #CFSME is kicking my butt so my blog mojo might return. However, I am pretty good at predicting change and I feel traditional blogging is a slowly dying art. People love the immediacy and visuals of social media, and I've noticed blog views steadily going down as my engagement on social media absolutely surges. In simpler terms, people rarely click through to a website for a full view when they have a snippet of information in their hands on their phone/tablet. People want/need less information to make a decision or a purchase as we're all turning into short attention span robots attached to our devices 24/7. 😂😆 What I'm saying is I'll be transitioning to a more social media based 'digital influencer' role rather than a blogger per se. Will I give up blogging totally? No, but I will be doing a lot more just-for-social-media posts than I will be doing things just for the blog. In fact you'll probably see me around more often than ever before as the micro-review aspect of social media is about all I can cope with with the brain fog I have from #Fibromyalgia. Short bursts of thinking are better for me. I have to shut out all noise/distractions to be able to concentrate on writing a blog post, which is why I haven't written one in over a week. I'm not going away, I'm just concentrating on social media with a side of blogging rather than my old method of blogging with a side order of social media. Hell I hope that made sense as my head is FRIED. 😂😂😂 #blogging #digitalinfluencer #influencer #allchange #thefutureisnow
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M.E. is totally kicking my behind at the moment - as it has been on and off since my May holiday really - and I'm hoping in a few weeks when I've recovered a little I'll be able to put more of myself into my blog, as well as continuing to invest extra time in the social media aspect of my online presence. (God, that sounds pretentious!)

I'm not going away, I'm just diversifying. When I get my energy back I have soooo many things to share, but in the meantime keep a close eye on my Instagram as that's where I spend most of my time at the moment. I hope you're all doing well - I've really lapsed with my blog reading AND replying to the comments you leave me, and that's not like me at all. Send mojo and good vibes please, and I'm sending them to you.

Have a great weekend,
Leah xoxo
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Thursday, 14 July 2016

The New Look £5.50 dress


Hello lovelies! I'm back from my holiday now and it was great. I have a pain and fatigue hangover because Fibromyalgia and ME mean active times like holidays take it out of me. (What's a restful holiday? PMSL).
 

I took these photos in a cemetery near Guildford on a weekend where we stayed with Mookie and Mike. Yes, the same one where I got bit 7 times by mosquitoes. I'm all better now.


I'm linking up this blog post with Nikki who has the same dress - her link is at the bottom of this post. Unfortunately the dress is sold out now - it wasn't going to last long at that price. There's not much point in reviewing it unless you're hoping to pick one up on eBay, but it is comfy and very stretchy - great for casual days.


As usual Mookie and I took lots of silly photos together. I'm going to post about the cemetery itself (which is an absolutely stunning place) and I'll include some more photos of Mookie and I in that post.


This is just a quick post from me today as I have family staying with me from Friday so I've got soooo much cleaning and tidying to do. I may have been on holiday but the dust fairies definitely weren't! I hope everyone is well.

Here's what I'm wearing:
Dress, New Look Curves
Cropped white leggings, Yours Clothing
Shoes, Primark

Thanks for reading and don't forget to check out Nikki's blog.
Leah xoxo
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Tuesday, 12 July 2016

I have dermatillomania......


I've battled it on and off since I was 14.

28 years.

It started when I was doing my mock exams at school and had a really stressful home life and I developed psoriasis on the back of my head. Back then I had an area of psoriasis about the size of two oranges on my scalp. The picking has gotten much worse in the 8 years I've had Fibromyalgia, as chemical sensitivities plus some kind of dermatitis or a recurrence of psoriasis on my scalp means there's always something on my scalp to pick at. Every time I wash my hair, some of my scalp scabs over. I pick at it until my head bleeds, until I have bald patches, until my lymph nodes become inflamed under the onslaught. Even then I can hardly stop. I have to stop for a few days before I can henna my hair or else it'll find its way into broken skin and cause an allergic reaction, but for those few days I cant wait to pick again.

One of my hands is always poised to pick at the front of my scalp and doing this on and off for over 25 years means my shoulder joints are wearing out. Arms just aren't meant to spend so much time in the air, and when I put my bra on in the morning my shoulders crunch. I've been cutting the top of my head out of photos for a while because my hair is so thin there from constant picking. When Im focusing on the pain I can't focus on anything else. I know it's a form of self-harm and I just can't stop.

I don't even know I'm doing it half the time. It's like I'm in a fugue state. I don't even know why I'm writing this, except in case it reaches someone else who's feeling terribly alone. And it DOES make you feel terribly alone. I've only ever told one person about this in my entire life, although no doubt those closest to me will have noticed my behaviour. So far in writing this - in a space of about 5 minutes as I'm taking my shame and anger out on the keyboard - I've stopped to pick my head twice already. When one of my hands isn't picking at my scalp I keen for it. I know it's stress related, and I'm really stressed out at the moment so I'm gouging away like I'm trying to reach the centre of the earth via my scalp.

My hair is really really thin at the front. I need help.  I know I need CBT or medication to treat it. But how do you break a habit 28 years in the making? Fuck.

Dermatillomania

I'm embarrassed and ashamed to admit I have this, but if it touches one person who's going through it alone, then it's worth it.

Leah xoxo
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Saturday, 9 July 2016

Boohoo Plus Carrie cross back swing dress

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Hello me loves! I'm pretty obsessed with Boohoo Plus lately, especially their cheap and cheerfully-priced jersey dresses. Dress 'em up or dress 'em down, and they go with everything. I bought this dress in rust and black as I love showing my back tattoo off.

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I love the way the wind is rippling through the dress.

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I know that my cellulite shows through white leggings a bit but I don't care. I used to be mortified about my cellulite when I was younger, even though I barely had any. Now I don't give a crap. Dimples on the face are cute so why not dimpled legs?!

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What a face!

I'm wearing:
Boohoo Plus Cassie cross back swing dress
Cropped white leggings, Yours Clothing
Bag & shoes Primark
Jean jacket (just seen) past season Yours Clothing

I have about 4 or 5 of Boohoo's jersey dresses, all in a size 24, and all very generously sized on my size 26/28 bod. Aim for the jersey or swing styles if you're up to a size 30 and you should be right. I haven't tried any bodycon by them, but I wouldn't rate my chances of getting into a tight size 24. Their dresses are really soft to the touch and they wash well too. They do crease a bit in the wash but I don't iron and creases will usually fall out with a couple of hours of body heat anyway. Lazy girl life hack yo, you can thank me later. ;)

This is just a really quick review as I'm on holiday and I've scheduled a bunch of posts. One thing to bear in mind with this dress is the black one is at least 3 inches longer than this, and yeah, it's the same size. Go figure!

Thanks for reading,
Leah xoxo
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Thursday, 7 July 2016

My Spanish holiday in pictures


I've shared the outfit photos (well, most of them!) and I've shared a few other shots on Instagram, but here's our holiday to Spain in photos! Dun-dun-DUNNNN!

Almost every day we had breakfast al fresco, which was lovely. We'd sit out here again in the evenings most nights drinking and talking into the small hours until it got too cold. Out of everything I miss now I'm back home, it's being outside for such long periods. There's something so soothing about being able to sit outside instead of being indoors. I live in a flat with no garden, and I really miss being able to sit outside all day, hearing nature sounds and watching the birds stop by for crumbs. We'd have freshly baked bread for breakfast every morning with cheese, ham, fruit, olives and fruit juice, etc. It was lush. James's eyes are closed in the photo, oops.


The villa complex has a pool per every few villas and no one else used it the whole time we were there. It was HEAVEN.


That's how close we were to the pool.


Being such a history and architecture freak, our visit to Cartagena was my favourite day out as it's a very ancient town with lots of gorgeous buildings, including some Art Nouveau ones. I loooooooove Art Nouveau everything! We weren't there a long time as it was SO hot and Mookie wasn't feeling well, but what I did see made me really want to go back and spend a couple of days there. There are lots of statues there, including one in the second collage which is a memorial to victims of terrorism - El Zulo.

Look at the detail in those Medusa heads - amazing!
Is that a bullet hole in that building?

I know there are so many more things to see and do in Cartagena and I'd love to go back. You can read some more about it on Wikipedia here.

I have lipstick on my teeth but I won't tell if you won't ;)

This my friends is what I called the 'marriage lasagne' because it was so damned good I wanted to marry the chef. Soooooo good. My days. We ate at this place twice in the week as it was to die for, and the restauranteurs almost wanted our custom, which was the warmest reaction we had all week. ;)

More carbs!!
Trust me to finish on food! We ate well all week as we were quite active and you need carbs to fuel all those blogger outfit changes. ;)

I hoped you've enjoyed this blog post. Are travel posts something you like to see?

Thanks for reading,
Leah xoxo

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