Wednesday, 30 November 2011

My Christmas wishlist


I've had a bit of a crappy day and want to cheer myself up by thinking about pretties!

I saw a couple of other people in my blog feed were doing their Christmas wish lists and I thought I'd be a little sheepie and do mine too.

Fragrance is always high up on my list. I like to smell good for myself, as well as for J.

1. Hypnotic Poison, one bucket of, please.

With notes of vanilla, wood, moss and jasmine, this perfume makes me want to hump myself. I wore it and nothing else for years before hard times came a-calling. Now I go months without a bottle, as it's not the cheapest perfume, but I ALWAYS keep the last old bottle so I can have a good sniff when I need one.

2. Imogen Rose by Gorilla Perfume (Lush)

I didn't think I liked rose scents until I smelled this. Hell, I didn't even really know what rose absolute smelled like! I though rose scents were for old ladies. 

With notes of rose, bergamot, vetivert, ambrette seed, tonka, and orris it makes me want to sniff myself all day long. There's a baby-powdery dry down which is just mmmmmm.

Everything Lysa makes makes me thankful for my nostrils.

Maximo is bonfires and winter hearths, with notes of sweet cocoa, spicy black pepper, earthy patchouli with a heart of vanilla and wood. 

4. Yours Clothing animal print tunic

For obvious reasons, if you saw my blog about Bet Lynch.

5. Rock N Roll necklace from Punky Pins

I love it. I'm a rock chick. Rawwwwwr!

I could go on forever but 5 things will do.

What's on your Christmas list?

Thanks for reading. 

Thursday, 24 November 2011

Such depth of emotion


I've just been watching the X Factor USA. It's Thanksgiving week and emotions are running high in all the contestants. They're also running high in me because I seem to be feeling pre-menstrual 3 weeks out of 4 at the moment.

However, this performance by Josh Krajcik not only made the other performers look like cardboard cut-outs, it made me sob like a teething baby.

You would have to be dead not be touched by his performance.

Wild Horses is one of my favourite Stones songs, but he nailed it, surpassed it, blew it out of the water.

What's your favourite song cover?

Thanks for reading. 

Wedding Stuff & Crafter Feature More T Vicar

A month or two ago I bought a lot of china from a seller on Facebook called More T Vicar

The plan with the wedding then was to go for a vintage theme, which is why I was buying up mismatched china/glass/serving ware. Now, the wedding is kinda themeless, so I'm not sure if it'll get used for the wedding, but it's pretty to look at and use anyway. I might gift some of it at Christmas if I can bear to part with it :)

On to the photos!

Cute little sandwich tray

This is just beautiful and I might use it to put jewellery in

This needs some cupcakes on it!
This one is tiny and cute, just a few inches across

Luster ware (above and below) is my favourite china

Isn't it pretty?

Paula also sells lovely vintage jewellery, so this week I bought a lovely little brooch from her to wear on my wedding day.

You have absolutely NO worries about is the way Paula wraps up your china.

She takes infinite care. That's some bubble wrap mountain - yay!

Another great thing about Paula is her statuses full of double entendres. They really cheer me up.

Do you have a favourite seller you want to tell me about?

Feel free! I love finding new places to shop :)

Thanks for reading. 

Elemis goodies from QVC


The last couple of days have been 'good post' days. The postie and couriers have been busy delivering Christmas presents for others and treats for me - the downside with a little Christmas window shopping online is I keep seeing things I want for myself!

One such temptation was the Tranquil Indulgence set from Elemis, which was on QVC at a ludicrously cheap price (£39.96!) and on Easy Pay, meaning I could pay for it at £9.99 a month for 4 months. 

 It contains:

  • 1 x Pro-Collagen Marine Cream (30ml) - award-winning moisturiser helps to actively reduce the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles whilst hydrating your skin
  • 1 x Pro-Radiance Cream Cleanser (150ml) - formulated to deeply cleanse your skin, gently dissolving make-up and daily grime to a radiant, youthful-looking complexion
  • 1 x Pro-Radiance Hand and Nail Cream (100ml) - luxuriously rich hand cream quickly absorbs to instantly hydrate hands and condition your nails
  • 1 x Frangipani Monoi Body Oil (100ml) - super-hydrating oil designed to leave your skin feeling silky soft and beautifully fragranced. It can be used as a massage oil and a hair treatment
  • 1 x Tranquil Touch Bath Elixir (300ml) - enriched with cocoa butter, patchouli, cedarwood and vetivert to leave your skin felling soft and delicately scented
  • 1 x navy patent wash bag - 26.5cm x 17.5cm x 8cm (10.3" x 6.8" x 3.1")

It has gone up to £48.50 now but it's still a massive saving. Four items are full sized, with only the Marine Cream being a smaller size than is on sale usually. Here we have 30 ml and 50 ml retails at £76.60. That means a 30 ml is worth approximately £45.96. The Frangipani body oil retails at £29, the Pro-Radiance cleanser is £27.60, the hand cream is £29, the bath elixir is £18. That lot adds up to £149.56! And you get a free wash/make up bag too. 

Onto the pics. 

Everything was wrapped up carefully


I love the way the rose print is reflected by the bag

The only product I have used before is the Monoi melt body oil, which is wonderful. I'll be getting to know all the products shortly and will report back. I've sniffed the bath elixir and I think I'll be taking a bath very soon. It smells bloody awesome.

Don't you just love crazy bargains?

I'm normally High St rather than high end, but thought I'd make an exception this time.

Have you ever tried anything by Elemis?

Thanks for reading. 

Wednesday, 23 November 2011

Crafter Feature Kokokelli

Yesterday I featured the lovely Sarah from Dillydollydaydream, who made the necklace I'll be wearing at my wedding.

Today it's the turn of Kelly from Kokokelli (click for website). I bought a purple bracelet and earrings set from Kelly for my mum's birthday, which is just after Christmas. None of my family read my blog so I'm safe to post the photo here.

Isn't it lovely?

I bought a similar hamsa hands set from Kelly for my mum last year. She absolutely loved it and got lots of compliments on it, so I know she'll love this one too.

Kelly is another crafter I've become close to over the internet. It's nice to have a close relationship with the people you buy things from.

How's your shopping for Christmas going?

Tuesday, 22 November 2011

This quote made my eyes water a little

I'm not much of a one for posting positive quotes and suchlike, because what I find inspiring might make someone else feel patronised. Ordinarily I think we can look for our own sunshine when we need it, however, I got an email today and I thought it was too good not to share (and it made me a tiny bit weepy!)

As my friend was passing the elephants, he suddenly stopped, confused by the fact that these huge creatures were being held by only a small rope tied to their front leg. No chains, no cages. It was obvious that the elephants could, at anytime, break away from the ropes they were tied to but for some reason, they did not. My friend saw a trainer nearby and asked why these beautiful, magnificent animals just stood there and made no attempt to get away.

“Well,” he said, “when they are very young and much smaller we use the same size rope to tie them and, at that age, it’s enough to hold them. As they grow up, they are conditioned to believe they cannot break away. They believe the rope can still hold them, so they never try to break free.” My friend was amazed. These animals could at any time break free from their bonds but because they believed they couldn’t, they were stuck right where they were.

Just like these elephants, many of us were brought up with a false self-limiting belief of some sort – ‘I’m not good enough’ or ‘why try if I am not going to make it’, or ‘success, riches & freedom are for the chosen ones’, ‘entrepreneurship is not for me’, ‘I’m only destined to do a job I hate & pay the bills’ and many more versions of this same belief that underestimates the capability, talent, and potential within us.

Your Attempt May Fail But Never Fail To Attempt


P.S. I love elephants, they are so beautiful. I wish we didn't have to chain any animals up or put them in cages. 

What's your favourite animal?
Do you have a positive quote you'd like to share?

Thanks for reading. 

Wedding Stuff - Necklace & Crafter Feature Dillydollydaydream


The necklace I'll be wearing on the big day arrived today.

I bought it from my friend Sarah, who has an Folksy shop: Bluebirds and Daisies
(Previously called Dillydollydaydream.)

She's one of the nicest people I know and has made me oodles of lovely things. I count her amongst my dearest friends, even though we've never met, as she is always there with support and advice. She can knock up custom orders from her lovely stash and is so friendly and approachable. You can contact her through Folksy.

On to the necklace:

Isn't it pretty?

It will look SO good with my dress.

Happy, happy, happy! Things are starting to come together :)

Thanks for reading. 

Wedding Stuff - Bridesmaids dresses

There have been so many changed decisions about this wedding that it got a little dizzying for everyone (especially me, as I've organised eveyfink all on my lonesome, like many a bride before me).

Quick recap for new readers:
J and I decided to get married in January this year after I nearly died. Abbreviated version = woman becomes pregnant, baby grows in fallopian tube, fallopian tube bursts, woman nearly bleeds to death, woman loses fallopian tube but lives to fight another day. YAY! There's a happy ending beginning right there.

First of all my plans for the wedding were all 'fairytale romance' with a lot of people at the ceremony and everything done the way I wanted it. A girl should ALWAYS start off planning her wedding the fairy tale way, because every girl deserves that happiness. Sadly the dream often gets replaced with someone else's vision for your day, but the important thing is you get to believe in the whole princess bullshit for a sweet while (and some lucky ones get to live it out to the end, YAY!)

We came *this* close to cancelling everything (as I was so stressed) and getting married in NY, but my mum was so upset about it we had to scrap that idea and massively scale back the ceremony part to just 30 people. This will enable us to go 'all out' in the evening (to accommodate J's humongous extended family).

So first of all we were going to have bridesmaids and we were of course buying their dresses. The next decision was we were getting hitched in NY, hence no bridesmaids. Then we realised we couldn't go through with the NY plan but thought we still couldn't afford to pay for bridesmaids outfits. Then I thought after all this fannying about, we really should have bridesmaids as they've stuck through us through all this upheaval.

Thus, you have experienced about 1% of the turmoil in my mind ;)

Anyhow......I said that if I could find bridesmaids dresses cheaply we would buy them (in case anyone got their hopes up of having a ludicrously expensive/elaborate dress).

Modelled by bridesmaid Rach in my slightly cluttered hallway
If you look around you can get some awesome bridesmaids dresses for a steal. 

Tip: search 'evening dress' rather than 'bridesmaid dress' as EVERY DAMN cost is inflated when it's for a wedding. These dresses were £22 each!! And as they're not some hideous big satin meringue, the girls can wear them to other occasions. They don't scream 'wedding'.

If I can find some nice pashminas for my bridesmaids I will buy them in case it's a chilly day when we get married (it's in April, so it might be). The girls will be wearing purple and gold, and I will be didn't seriously think I was going to give that away, did you?! It's a SECRET!

Next thing to sort out is the invitations. God help me! :)

Are you married?
Did you go FRIGGING INSANE planning your wedding?

Thanks for reading. 

Sunday, 20 November 2011

Some more sunsets


Autumn and winter are an amazing time of year to capture sunsets.

There's no better time of year for nature to show off her splendour, and as I live high up on a hill with panoramic views of the sea and coastline I'm in a prime spot to capture some of it.

From Nov 10th:

 From 13th Nov:

 From today after the sun went down:

What is your favourite spectacle of nature?

Thanks for reading. 

Introducing my earliest fashion inspiration


I grew up watching Coronation Street. I don't watch it now, but I did up until about 10 years ago. For many years I worked unsociable shifts at Gatwick Airport, so keeping up on my favourite soaps became a bit of a chore. I picked Eastenders up a few years ago but didn't get back into Coronation Street for some reason.

For those of you abroad, Coronation Street is a soap opera set in the North of England, and it's been on screen here for over 50 years! It's the longest running soap opera in the world. I watched it from very early childhood with my mum, and I think I might start watching it again.

There was one woman on Corrie (as it's affectionately known) who was my fashion inspiration from a very young age, and to this day I think she rocks.

I bring you Bet Lynch, a character who has popped in and out of Coronation Street for many, many years.

She's a bar maid. She's loud, she's bold, she's brazen and she has access to the booze. No wonder I love her. The fact she's always wreathed in leopard print is entirely incidental, but thanks to this fictional character, I have a life-long love of leopard print. In fact, I can't even think of leopard print without thinking of Bet Lynch.

I seriously think she must've been a major inspiration to Amy Winehouse.

The beehive, the over-done almost drag queen-esque make up. I'm sure Bet's earrings inspired Eastenders character Pat Evans as well.

One day I'm going to do Bet Lynch fancy dress. It will be MEGA!

Here she is in more recent years. The beehive has gone, but she's still rocking the leopard print. As you can see from the fag and the champers, she's a real good time girl. Maybe that's what I love about the character so much (even though I don't smoke and don't advocate it as a lifestyle choice). She's having fun and she doesn't give a flying bat fuck what people think of her for it.

Amen to that! 

Every time I see someone rocking the leopard print I think of Bet Lynch, and I owe my lust for it to her (and the fact it looks awesome!)


Who's your fictional fashion inspiration?
Who's your real life fashion inspiration? 

Feel free to post links and tell us all about your fave soaps and characters if you're outside England!

I love to hear about new things.

Thanks for reading. 

I've won a nightie


Recently I entered a competition over at Olivia's wonderful blog Wait Until The Sunset.

The prize was a gorgeous nightie from Virtu, a plus size clothing brand from Australia. 

I didn't think for a moment I'd win, but I did, and I'm so happy my face is like this:

Please go and check out Olivias's blog if you don't follow her already. She wears lots of lovely outfits and her smile is pure sunshine - you can't help but feel smiley when reading her blogs.

Happy Sunday!

Thanks for reading. 

If you're a fan of Elemis, you'll want to read this


Oh, what would I do without the lovely Charlotte at Lipglossiping?

It was she who gave me the heads up about the massive Elemis bargain on QVC available now.

Image lifted from QVC email (click for larger image)
This little beauty contains:
  • 1 x Pro-Collagen Marine Cream (30ml) - award-winning moisturiser helps to actively reduce the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles whilst hydrating your skin
  • 1 x Pro-Radiance Cream Cleanser (150ml) - formulated to deeply cleanse your skin, gently dissolving make-up and daily grime to a radiant, youthful-looking complexion
  • 1 x Pro-Radiance Hand and Nail Cream (100ml) - luxuriously rich hand cream quickly absorbs to instantly hydrate hands and condition your nails. Only available at QVC
  • 1 x Frangipani Monoi Body Oil (100ml) - super-hydrating oil designed to leave your skin feeling silky soft and beautifully fragranced. It can be used as a massage oil and a hair treatment
  • 1 x Tranquil Touch Bath Elixir (300ml) - enriched with cocoa butter, patchouli, cedarwood and vetivert to leave your skin felling soft and delicately scented
  • 1 x navy patent wash bag - 26.5cm x 17.5cm x 8cm (10.3" x 6.8" x 3.1")
Not only does it save you about 7 squillion quid from buying everything separately*, but what's even better is you can pay in 4 installments of £9.99!! 

(Can you tell I'm a little excited?!)

Oh yes! Come to mama!

*Last year when I wanted to try the Monoi Moisture Melt, it was about £30 to buy on its own! (But I bought it on eBay for about £24).

Get in quick, I think it's only this cheap all day today (Sunday).

What's the biggest bargain you've ever scored?
Are you a fan of Elemis?


The Monoi Melt is the only thing that REALLY quenches my Fibromyalgia-ravaged skin. You can also use it on your hair and scalp, on your nails, and it also removes the horrid residue after you've waxed. Aaaand it smells great.

In short, it's a wonder treatment, and if the other 4 things are half as good, I'll be banging on about them for months.

YAY for bargains!

Thanks for reading. 

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

Declutter update


A couple of days ago I said I was going to start de-cluttering, and I did. So far I've cleared out 2.5 bin bags of crap and a bag of recycling. I'm starting to make a serious difference in the spare room. Today I sorted out my underwear and sock drawers. Rather than having an annoying free-for-all system spread over several drawers, I now have a drawer for swimwear, hats and gloves. I have a drawer for knickers, bras and normal socks. I have a small box full of trainer socks and pop socks. I have a drawer full of 'special' underwear like basques, all in ones and control knickers, and my knee high socks. 

I've gone from thinking I had hardly any knickers to finding loads, including about 5 pairs I've never even worn. I also found loads of new socks too. Result! I did get rid of some grotty socks and underwear. 


It's amazing how good I feel for setting goals for myself and actually doing them, rather than putting things off and being lazy, then spending days beating myself about it.

Sometimes the simplest truths are the hardest ones to realise.
(Well they are for me because I'm a doofus!)

How's your week going?

What simple realisation took you a lifetime to find out?

Happy Wednesday!

Thanks for reading. 

My name is Leah....

...and according to such scum 'newspapers' like the Daily Mail and the Daily Express, I'm a benefit-scrounging leech on society.

I've got my left hand tucked into my right side bra strap right now to support it as it hurts sooo much. It feels like someone has ripped my elbow out of joint, and burns dully like I've had my blood pressure taken by the most sadistic nurse in the land - one who pumped the cuff up way too tight and left it on way too long.

My illness dictates everything from what shampoo I can use (my head weeps when I use most shampoo), what shoes I can wear (I have to wear VERY supportive shoes or my Achilles heels will rupture) and even the clothes I wear -  if I go out on a windy day, even if it's sunny, and I'm not covered from head to toe, my skin will chap red raw. If I go out not wearing enough clothes and the temperature drops I will get a chill which lasts for days.

I have to stay indoors 90% of the time as the problems with my bowel and bladder mean when I need the loo, I need it NOW. I have literally 30 seconds notice sometimes before I have to go.

If I have to grip something, like a pen, a broom, or a shopping bag, my hands cramp up in agony and I have to physically bend my fingers back straight.

I get things mixed up all the time. I get names and people mixed up. I might reply to something on Facebook and say the completely wrong thing as I think I'm speaking to someone else. It makes me look like an idiot, and I was grammar school educated, so I'm not daft. These are people I've known for years, too. It makes me doubt everything I think, everything I go to say. I'm losing the ability to spell and have to Google words I've known how to spell since before I was 10.

There's one place my bum doesn't hurt to sit - my sofa, which is thickly padded. Sitting in a normal desk chair makes my bum and base of my spine feel like I've been beaten with baseball bats. Even resting my feet flat on the floor is too painful sometimes. I spend a good part of my day with my feet off the floor on a footrest.

When I go anywhere in a car, the vibrations from the road make me hurt all over, especially my arms. I have to tuck them into the waist part of the seatbelt and let them go like dead weights to try to lessen the pain.

I lose balance all the time, even stepping from one foot to another. Sometimes I wave my arms around in the air like a demented tightrope walker and J will catch me and right me, other times I'll bounce off a wall or a door - if there's one in the way - and often times I'll land on the deck, as I did twice last month. It lost my balance once in Tesco going from one foot to the other and nearly fell into the refrigerated section, causing some old witch to tut at me, as I suppose I looked drunk.

My memory is crap - I can leave a tap running, leave the rings burning on the stove, forget to take my meds, forget birthdays, forget my way home....even when I have Google maps up on my phone. I have to laugh, sometimes there's nothing else to do :)

I am prone to injuries - especially in my feet/ankles, knees, hips and back - which are always caused by the stupidest things: doing the hoovering, going for a walk, turning over in bed, picking something up off the floor etc. etc. I am depressed and anxious. Getting out of bed is the hardest thing for me to do every day as I don't want to face the day. If I'm outside on my own I have panic attacks. I have to go everywhere with my boyfriend (edit - now husband.) If I'm going to town to meet my gal pals I have to take taxis both ways as I can't walk that far without serious injury AND I will have a panic attack. I have a panic attack going to the post box on my own. If I see someone coming towards me I cross the road and if someone is right up my arse behind me (some people seem to have no respect for personal boundaries) I will walk as fast as I can - even if I injure myself - to get away from them.

I have a headache almost every day, and if I 'push through' it too much I will get a migraine which will incapacitate me and send me to bed. Bright sunlight physically pains me. It feels like I'm being knifed in the eyes, and if I'm not careful I'll get a migraine. I'm sensitive to noises, smells, movement. If I stand still in a public place where people are streaming past, where it's noisy, where there are lots of smells, I will soon start to feel dizzy and nauseous. A trip to the supermarket taxes me no end.

CFS is a real pain in the arse. Over do it - like a 20 minute walk or a gentle swim - and I walk like a drunk, slur my words and HAVE to get to bed ASAP before I injure myself. Once I passed out whilst hoovering. I was most perplexed to wake up with a radiator shaped dent in my bonce. I'm dizzy and nauseous much of the time. IBS and bladder pain pretty much rules my life, that's when the periods from hell aren't ;) Pain is a constant companion of mine, funny that this is the last thing I mentioned, but I hurt everywhere every day. Sometimes I can get by and not even notice it so much, and sometimes it makes me take to my bed and pray for sleep to take it all away.

Yeah, I'm a real scrounger.

Fuck you Cameron and your little media spin-bastards who are feeding all this shit to your partisan newspaper buddies.


Something a little different


I went out to lunch today with my ex-boss. We went to the De La Warr Pavilion in Bexhill, which is vey vey posh! The food was bloomin' awesome. I'd highly recommend it if you want an expensive but tasty lunch.

While we were there we checked out the Andy Warhol exhibit. It was pretty flaming good. I'd recommend it if it's not too far for you to travel. There was even a bit of penis! I say! There were a few shots of Any Warhol's muse Joe Dallesandro. I fell in love. Damn, he was an impressive looking guy in his day.


Be careful if you Google him from work. There are quite a lot of pics of him with his wanger out!

I bought a few bits and pieces in the gift shop afterwards, since I'd accounted on going Dutch for lunch but my ex-boss paid. Nice!

Warhol fridge magnet and cute little brooch.
 The brooch is so cute and it was only £2.75! The girl who made it has an Etsy here.

I love this print. I bought one to give and one to send.

I thought this was a cool card to give to a man :)

This is too cool!

I bought this because it reminds me of the stuff my mum and nan had when I was a kid

Here are 2 shots of my makeup today too.

Disclosure - I've airbrushed these shots a bit as my skin is merde

I look like a stunned guppy in most of my pics!

Are you into art?
Who's your favourite artist?

Mine is my tattooist :)

Ooh, while I was at the De La Warr I saw Henry Rollins is doing a spoken word performance there next year. We've booked tickets already. Hell yes! I've never seen one of his spoken word performances but I've heard they're epic. Can't wait!

Thanks for reading.